Quarter Life Crisis

Quarter Life Crisis anyone?
It actually exist!!

I was chillin at home with hanis when we were gossiping bout our current life dramas ;) Then she said that it's actually quarter life crisis we're having. She googled it last nite and there it was on wikipedia (our source of all knowledge..haha). I googled it too!! And to my horror, I have diagnosed myself as having Quarter Life Crisis. I know...it is dodgy to be excusing myself this way but in this new era of physical, mental and emotional wellbeing enlightened society we live in, it is excusable :)

Anyways, here's a list of characteristics of this crisis:

• realizing that the pursuits of one's peers are useless
• confronting their own mortality
• watching time slowly take its toll on their parents, only to realize they are next
• insecurity regarding the fact that their actions are meaningless
• insecurity concerning ability to love themselves, let alone another person
• insecurity regarding present accomplishments
• re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships
• lack of friendships or romantic relationships, sexual frustration, and involuntary celibacy
• disappointment with one's job
• nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life
• tendency to hold stronger opinions
• boredom with social interactions
• loss of closeness to high school and college friends
• financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.)
• loneliness, depression and suicide
• desire to have children
• a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you
• frustration with social skills

Now whadya know....ticks all my boxes!!! Apparently this largey applies to the Generation Y kids, US! This crisis happens when we are transitioning into the young adult life where we are faced with "the real world". Careers, love, friendships, families, finances all snowballed into a huge question mark to where this is all heading.....


Oh....help me doctor, I'm sick ;)

Purrrrfect

"Never use your eyes to cry for the one who fooled you, instead use it to search for the right one"

Ok....so I saw this on someone's Fb status....totally caught my heart!!! Don't you love it when you're bored and you go through the news feed on Fb and something like this just brightens up your day :) Especially considering I was at the hospital when I caught this one.... ;)

Anyway...today, I have gotten myself my second recommendation for my internship applications!!!!! Now all I need to do is figure out how the hell am I suppose to write my resume...I have never in my life written one, so.....yes, I am exceptionally clueless at this......Someone please help me.....~puppy eyes~

AND....today I could have fainted and created another drama for myself but instead....i was composed well enough to....well....let's just say that my wonderland bubble right now just keep getting bigger ;) hahaha....

PS: He made me laugh :)

SICK

I currently suffer the following symptoms:
- magical thinking
- delusional thoughts
- anxiety attacks
- absence seizure attacks
- heightened sense of all sensory modalities
- obsessive
- small outbursts of disinhibition

Diagnosis please?

extreme budgeted makeover

SCALA has been through an extreme budgeted makeover!!!!
It has been loooooongg overdue but finally it's done!! well, not exactly done....there's a few bits and pieces that needs dealing with but on the overall, it's finally felt like home since a looooong time now... :)
Took a whole weekend but in the end, it was soooo worth it!!!
When I say budgeted, I mean, we didn't spend a single cent...haha....we just basically moved things around and threw out most of the rubbish in the house.
By the way, these are BB photos so, obviously it looks so much better than this....hahahaa....

To achieve the 'we-are-all-well-read-n-intelligent' feel, we moved the bookshelf to the living room. It's now next to the dining table.....  

Moving on, we changed the coffee table to this 'rustic vintage looking' turquoise table. It's smaller than the old one so it kinda creates a whole lot more space in front of the TV.

Now, to my favourite part of the house...my bedrooomm!!!! Well, it's actually renia and me :) It looks like a whole new room now.

Hers and Hers :P

We added a sort of backdrop behind our bed with sheer purple and black curtains.

My bedside... ;)

We also changed the WIR curtains to a sheer purple curtain, same as the backdrop. And a little candlelighted peacock at the WIR entrance just makes it a little more dreamier don't u think?? (I know I made u proud ajjie!! hehe...)

This is now next to the door. Where it used to be is now our massive study table :)

Oh, did I mention that we have fishes in our bathroom now?? 

So that's mostly it....to all of u who've been to SCALA and hasn't since, come visit again!!! U know our sessions in SCALA is legendary.... hahaha....

Thanks to those who spared their wasted extra time to help (Yes, you Shaq, Chippie and Aishah)

Munira.....wish u were here in SCALA wif me and ren....miss u!!!

FUTUREMUSIC FESTIVAL 2010

Oh My Effin' Gawwd!!!!
FMF was sooo bloody effin' awesome!!!!!!

The weather was bad but that didn't dampen our high spirits at all! :D
First it was cold, and then HOT (!!), and then the dark clouds started hovering.....then, RAIN!!
They actually closed all the stages and stopped all the music when it rained....Imagine the horror!! Wet and not knowing when they'll resume playing.....I'm not sure if it was me, being anxious and upset, or not coz it seemed so long til we heard the resonating sounds from the mainstage!!!! Everyone practically cheered and ran towards the mainstage where...guess who was playing??? DAVID GUETTA!!!!! "Fuck the rain, right" he cried. Fuck yea!! hahahaha....

The feeling was incredible.....the rain, david guetta...somehow clicked...haha....
And the moment I was waiting for....PRODIGY!!!  Dream come true!!!! I vowed there were 3 bands I'd like to see live before my old age stops me...haha... Silverchair (done!! wif miss ainer!!), Prodigy (accomplished!!) and BSB.....the only one left...which, to say...I kinda grew out of...haha....

Me n renia stayed on til everything was done....Went back the way we came, tramming....wet, happpyyyy, accomplished, and still full of energy, in a cramped miserably wet and dirty tram to the city....

PS: It felt like we survived some catastrophe that could have happened....hahaha..... maybe that was just us ;P

PSS: oh, did i mention we also saw franz ferdinand, empire of the sun and, above and beyond? just to drop-name a few....hahahaha....

 

Walking on sunshine

  

 Erick Morillo 

  

 Aishah & Chippie

  

  

  

 Dark clouds came......

  

 .....and then the rain poured

  

 Dancing in the rain

  

 David Guetta

Woot woot!!!! :)

Alice In WONDERland

 Who's in??

Oh My God!!!

It's coming!! This Thursday!!!
Finally the wait is over!! :D

I can't wait to watch Tim Burton's Alice In Wonderland!!! ;)
Oh...of course, the highlight,  
Johnny!! ~drools~

Dare To Dream

 

 Chanel Spring 2010 Couture

  

Chanel Spring 2010 Couture

  

Anne Valerie Hash Spring 2010 Couture

  

 Prada Spring 2010 Couture

  

 Rodarte Fall 2010 RTW

  

 Anna Sui Fall 2010 RTW

  

 Givenchy Spring 2010 Couture

In a daze and look where it got me? 

I'm lusting~

In my wraith, I hold them.....in my own rhapsody

Hey, a girl can always dream right? 

And those dreams are MINE :)

Single

"I'm single"

I used to say that with such anguish and melancholy. It's amazing how a phrase like that could easily make you feel so alone and deserted. I used to feel so empty whenever the thought even invades my mind.

"I'm single"

Now, I say it with such ease and a sense of complacency. I say it blithely and full of self-admiration. Whenever the thought crosses my mind, another prospect turns up that makes me smile (let's not disclose that shall we? :P)

"Being single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means you're pretty sexy and you're taking your time deciding how you want your life to be and who you want to spend it with." - Carrie Bradshaw

It's not a status anymore. It's a way of celebrating your life and your independence. I have always been independent but now, I'm actually emotionally independent. For that I am thankful and blessed....let's face it, it wasn't easy to overcome the sense of need and compulsion to be loved by that one significant other, especially after so long. So now, I'm celebrating my single life with whomever and however I WANT! And what about the other perks of being single? I'm truly loving it!!

• You can do whatever you want (whatever you want...)
• No need to deal with anyone's bad moods and split personality dramas
• Just get the juice/cheese/toilet papaer/videos/CDs/take-out that you want!
• There is no one putting you on a tiny pedestal that you can fall off of at any moment, unless you are focusing on your balance all day long
• You don't have to stroke the fragile male ego, and other things.
• No more checking with someone to see if 'it's okay' to tell someone yes or no to an invitation. You can accept on the spot.
• You don't have to do laundry because he has no clean socks.
• You can eat garlic or onions without a second thought about breath mints. (unless you haf a hawt date of course...hahaha)
• You don't have to worry if he will or won't call
•  You don't have to give yourself lame excuses for not devoting time to yourself
•  No more arguments about things you can't explain
•  You can be happy with who you are, not who he wants you to be 

 "You do not need to be loved, not at the cost of yourself. The single relationship that is truly central and crucial in a life is the relationship to the self. Of all the people you will know in a lifetime, you are the only one you will never lose." - Jo Courdert

Along the way I've strived and defended the relationship, I've lost myself, there's no doubt about it. I have lost the magic that was me and only me. How could I have denied myself of the joy that defines my life? How could I have used him as a crutch to live my life? There's so much I have missed and now I have to make up for it, yes? ;)

I vow to not live in fear anymore.

"Sometimes you have to stand alone to prove that you can still stand." - Anonymous

This is in no way of comparing being in a relationship vs the single life. It is mere observations I have made in my road to self-discovery. My journey is still long and obscure. The road I will take is still unknown to me. Let me make my own mistakes that I won't regret. In the meantime, I have my dear family and friends to guide me and accompany me whilst I tread these untouched waters (and of course, for those goyang go-young sessions...ssshhhh)

 

~my soul sisters~

  

~toilet trip gone wild~

  

~12 years and counting~

                                                              ~i'll always afundi fal~

                                                                         ~wild cherry fun~

 

~my saviour, i love you forever~

                                         ~kari....wat can i say bro....haha~

 

~non-stop summer karaoke sessionsssss~

~no matter what, we'll be there ;P~

~my life partner in crime~

~the fun never stops with you gurls~

~not just a banana boat ride ;)~

~ doctor joe~

~ we fly together, we land together~

~ happy moments through my darkest times~

  

~ always brings the crazy, aboooo~

~ my hawt Melbourne mum~

                                                                          ~ShamWOW~

 

~my goyang go-young guru~

~u always make it count~

~ila gila~

~my heart beats for u~

~my brother, through thick and THIN~

 

~ i miss~

~newfound treasure~

~always more than the eyes can see~

~my motivators~

 

~i'll always remember our secret car session~

Oh, btw how undeniably accurate is this??? haha....

 “There are a number of mechanical devices which increase sexual arousal, particularly in women. Chief among these is the Mercedes-Benz 500SL.” – Lynn Lavner